sorting through my list

Thanks to everyone for your encouragement and kind words yesterday regarding Mother's Day. I was so proud to introduce you all to my mom. But I can't lie. Writing about her was very difficult. But so healing. That is a place I don't go very often. It is just so painful.

Today I will be brief. The Lord and I have some things to sort through. But of course I'm sharing. Today's post is fruit from a conversation I had with a neighbor probably three weeks ago. Luke was playing in the garage and she and I stood in my driveway, where I went on and on about what all needs to be done around our house. So I start to rattle off my mental list of projects - things that are broken, basic upkeep that has been neglected, projects I would just like to accomplish - painting, refreshing etc. She said to me, "When I get to a place like that, I go to the Lord with my list and say 'Here it is, God'. And I let Him handle it in His time." So wise.

So that is what I am doing today. I have a list that absolutely overwhelms me makes my heart a bit heavy. It requires two things that are often difficult for us - Time and Money. Anybody with me on this? Both things are very limited. So, as silly as my list may look, I am bringing it to the Lord this morning and we are going to talk about each one.



So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed. Let the morning bring me a word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Psalm 143:4,8 NIV

In the NASB the word for "faint" translates to overwhelmed. Oh yes. Hand raised. My heart is overwhelmed and my heart a bit dismayed. I looked up dismayed and one definition is stunned. Hand raised again. I am a bit stunned by how much all of this could cost. The black hearts on my list are the "really really really" need to be done things. I can't even bear to add it all up. Talk about my heart being stunned. Wow.

I must do whatever it takes to maintain the wellness of my soul - pursuing God with great passion." -A. Thomas

Today, Lord I am maintaining wellness for my soul. A list like this weighs heavy on it. Lord, I am putting my trust in You. Pursuing you. Show the way we should go. Where should we start?

Let's get creative.

Bring me a word of your unfailing love this morning. I lift up my soul to you. I lift up my list to
you. Thank you that you are the Lord who provides for us. Thank you that you care about me and my family and that you care about all of this, too. Your Word tells me that your love for me is great and your compassions never fail! I am not consumed. Lamentations 3:22. Thank you for the peace that comes with knowing you are in my corner and in total control. Bring Glory to
your name - even through my silly list.

Are you in need of making a list? Feeling overwhelmed? Heavy? I encourage you to do so. In everything present your requests to Him. He is so good to listen and give peace.

Rejoice in the Lord always, I will say it again: Rejoice! Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding
will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. - Ephesians 4:4,6-7

Be blessed.
Becky